SELF PORTRAIT
We went to the ballet studio again today and got some footage of the interview. My teacher Ruedy was asking me why all dancers like to sit on the floor. Well, so this is one of the way that I mentioned in last post how ballet deeply affect your life.
About 10 years past but I still clearly remember the smell of the floor in my ballet classroom. It smells like the wood mixed with people’s socks, and this kind of smell is universal(haha). I like it a lot anyways.
We used to stretch our body by laying on the floor and even put our face on the ground in order to pressing our legs. Every time when my teacher press my leg to hard, the only thing i can do is turn my face against the floor for relieving my pain( I thinks thats the reason why i know the smell of the ground so well, even the texture). The floor is like our closest friend during our painful foundation classes. It was not easy…(***sigh)
I recently working on a documentary project of Columbus BalletMet. BalletMet is basically a ballet company which include ballet performance and dance school.
For the sake of this project, our team spend most of class time hanging out in the ballet studio watching those dancers life. It reminds me the time when I was learning ballet in my childhood. Ballet is my chryptonite. My mom wanted me to be a dancer cause she think this is the thing what pretty girls suppose to do. I ended up give up on it because i was afraid of i would be able to do nothing other than dancing in my entire life. In my eyes dancing is a kind of thing that would deeply affect your life and isolate you from other people. You can tell if a person a ballet dancer only by watching the way they walk and the way they sit. Maybe it is because it is so hard, every ballet dancer is so special, it makes people like to put their eye on them. Hardness shape you into a unusual person.
Just watched Life In A Day on youtube. Such a nice film and I like it a lot.
I still remember that I had a hard time to decide whether should I write some scripts and film a specific story or continue document my experiment cause I constantly felt like a video wouldnt be complete if its without any story telling. However, as far as I get into my major now, I realized I was wrong. It is such a good thing that just use your camera to explore the beauty of your life.
Make the video that you feel like to make, film the subject that you feel like yourself cant stop to film. Don’t force yourself to create the story that you never have the interest in.
Make your work naturally before people get to know you so that they would know your style directly once they get close to you.
I wish I can be the person who can achieve the success independently, but I am not. I guess I am not the person who were protecting her dream anymore. Too bad.
